Journal of A Single Gal In Q8 - Episode Fourteen

From last episode

"You looked so sad in the cafeteria and I just couldn't leave you. San Francisco will have to wait!"

Whatever it was that was holding onto her heart and lungs, it suddenly let go. She could breath normally again. He didn't leave, she thought to herself. How sweet it is!"

It had taken him another three trips to the airport before he actually left and by then she had gotten used to the idea of him leaving. They had enjoyed the extra days and she felt content at last. Her training was coming to an end and she was heading to Kuwait at last.

When the plane finally touched down on Kuwaiti soil she actually smirked to herself for having the need to clap as they did in the olden days. She was just thrilled to be back. It had been too long and she was glad to be home.

As soon as she switched on her mobile while waiting for her bags to arrive, she began to receive messages and calls from her friends. It was good to be back, she thought.

She knew that she needed to collect her thoughts and analyze her relationship with this man that had such an affect on her. He was beginning to take over her mind and she was worried that she was becoming obsessed. She didn't like herself when she became obsessed.

She'd noticed it when she was on the plane. Every time something happened, she'd think to herself, "I wonder what he would think" or "I have to tell him about this". It was as though it was a duty that she had to keep tabs on everything so she could report back to him. She wondered, what it was like before he had stepped into her life. She usually shared her stories with her friends but this was different. Everything seemed more important. She felt she had to tell him everything even about the tiniest, silliest details of her day.

He called her later on the night upon her arrival to check that she'd arrived safely and told her that he'll be coming back soon. She felt her life was on hold until his return.

"Are you free tonight for dinner?" he asked the day after his arrival. He sounded stressed.

"Sure," she answered.

She'd taken her time getting dressed. She wanted to look extra special since she hadn't seen him in a long time but her mind kept wondering why he sounded so serious. Something about this just didn't feel right. She wanted to look romantic so decided to wear her light green chiffon dress that flowed when she walked. Putting her final touches of her make up, grabbing her incense holder and filling her hair with bekhour, she finally dashed out to her car and drove downtown. She hoped the traffic won't be too bad. She hated being late.

He had reserved a cabin at an Asian restaurant and was waiting for her when she walked in. She noticed a large package on the floor.

"You look so pretty," he said.

"Thank you." she answered feeling awkward that they were meeting again under different circumstances.

"I was hoping you won't look this good so it'll make what I have to say easier."

She didn't like the sound of that and her heart began to pound.

"What is it that you want to say?" she asked reluctantly. Part of her wanted to know and the other part just didn't want to handle any bad news. She was way too attached now.

"I got something for you," he replied, ignoring her question.

He reached down to the package and past it to her as he gestured that she open it.

She noticed the Tanagra box and slowly began to open it. It was of a beautiful statue. A young women holding on to a tray with two fish, the symbol of Pisces by Lladro. It was a piece of art and she adored it even though her mind was working overtime.

What is it that he wants to tell her and why does he look like the life has been sucked out of him. He hadn't shaved and looked like he'd lost weight since the last time she'd seen him.

"Thank you. I love it! You knew I'd love anything related to my horoscope! That's very sweet" she told him.

He looked pleased with himself although still not at ease as she was used to him being.

"There's something about me that you need to know and I hope you'll be understanding about it" he explained.

She held her breath, looked into his big blue eyes and waited.

To be continued...