Reflections of A Princess

Wednesday, May 31, 2006

When Past Comes Back To Haunt You

If you're past the age of 20, you know that you've already developed a little bit of history in your life...you made friends..some you still like and some...you're like...what the hell was I thinking!! Maybe even had crushes or relationships that you soon forgot over time...

For some reason, I've had this outrageous month where everybody who's anybody in my past keeps showing up in my life..and it's scary...Why do I keep bumping into my past? What is it trying to tell me? Is there a hidden message that I'm not getting?...

Sure the past plays an important role to one's future but when you leave it behind...will it leave you alone?

When it comes to the future are we victims of our own past?

Monday, May 22, 2006

Journal of A Single Gal In Q8 - Episode Eighteen

From last episode..

"I hope you're not mad at me,I missed you!" he said, quite embarrassed. He struggled searching for something in his carry on. "I got you this," he said finally as he took out a box of Mozart chocolates he must've picked up from Lufthansa airport.

Still in a daze, she took the chocolate box from him and then on impulse pinched him hard.

"Ouch!" she heard him say.

"Sorry, just had to check if it was you, besides, you deserved it!" she teased.

The next two weeks were more like a dream. He'd rented a convertible mustang then bought some CD's of Arabic songs from a local Arabic store run by some Lebanese. They had all the classics like Um Kalthoom, Abdul7aleem and the lot. They'd listen to the icons singing away in the car as they drove down to Las Vegas or down Westwood avenue.

The only time they'd ever argue was when she'd ask about his past. "What is she like?" she'd suddenly ask.

"Who?" he'd turn around and look at her knowing fairly well who she was asking about.

"You know...Her!"

"Do we have to talk about this. We're having fun, why would you want to spoil this," he'd answer hoping that she would cave in.

There were times that she would give up but her curiosity would always get the better of her.

"At least tell me how you met," she said one night over dinner.

"It's very simple. I had graduated from college and had been working for a few years. All my friends around me were getting married and everybody was nagging me that it was time to get married. I felt that it was time too so they told me to go see her because she was suitable and so I did. She had fit my criteria and we got engaged. It was during the engagement that I began to see certain types of behavior that I didn't appreciate but I was too embarrassed to tell anyone and figured maybe she'll change so I went through it. I now know that it was stupid. Later I thought maybe having kids would bring out the best in her but things just kept getting worse so I gave up. There, are you happy? Now my mood is totally off and I feel depressed," he leant back in his chair and began to sulk.

She felt her anger build inside her as she took deep breaths to calm herself down.

"I'm sorry but that's just sick! "She fit your criteria!" What? You were gonna buy a car?" she wasn't going to let him play the victim.

"Look, I know I made a mistake so there's no need to rub it in my face. They'd convinced me that I'd fall in love with her once we got married and I believed them. Now I know that they were wrong and I really wish you'd change the subject," he called the waiter to take their order.

She was about to reply but now that the waiter was standing there, she knew she couldn't. It was killing her to comment.

When they'd finally made the order, she said "Listen, I know that talking about this is bothering you but it's healthy and the sooner you talk openly with me about it, the better. Why is it that we Arabs believe that talking about our problems is a sign of weakness? It's not! If I'm not mistaken, you didn't even have a conversation with your kids telling them this isn't their fault. I suppose you both thought that the kids are too young to understand or that they'll figure it out on their own! I mean that is just so typical. It's sick!" She was on a roll and her words just kept coming out.

He'd obviously hit a core on various issues that she felt very passionately about. First it was the way that he'd gotten married which she'd always felt very strongly against. Second, the fact that he'd realized she wasn't the one during the engagement and went ahead with it anyway. Thirdly, his insisting of wanting to close the subject. If she wasn't so in love with him and had seen his good side, no doubt she would've turned around and told him "Sorry, you're not my type" as she'd done to so many other men that had past her path, particularly those that had been checking her out because their Mommy told them to!

"Listen, please don't try to use your Dr. Phil or Oprah on me. I've been very honest with you and telling you everything that you've been wanting to know. Is there no winning with you? I mean instead of you appreciating the fact that I told you, you've been giving me a hard time. Please don't let me regret telling you," he finished his sentence as the waiter arrived with their food.

She knew it was time to close the subject for now. She wanted to know a lot more but it was obvious he was not going to say anything further after she'd exploded in his face. They fell into silence as they ate their food. Her thoughts wondered off as to how to break the tension between them.

So this is why some couples look so miserable at restaurants, she thought to herself. She'd often watched couples eat in silence and it would kill her to see them not say one word to each other. She would always say to herself, if I'm ever in that situation, I'll never let that happen to me but here they were looking miserable while eating their food. She was determined to change the mood but she just couldn't think of what to say so she began to sulk too as her mind drifted further into her thoughts.

A few minutes had past and she was completely lost in her thoughts when she noticed he'd started on his main meal and was now cutting his steak into small pieces and placing them in her plate.

"Thanks," she mumbled. She wasn't sure if she was still supposed to be mad but then his gesture was sweet and she just didn't feel like being miserable anymore.

"I'm sorry if I snapped at you," he said.

"Thanks," she said.

"Are you going to say anything more besides thanks?" he teased her.

She reached over to his hand and squeezed it "I'm sorry if I gave you a hard time," she said sweetly.

"You shouldn't apologize," he replied. "You have nothing to apologize about. You have every right to know and I don't deserve an apology."

"Ok, fine. Let's not start a fight about who has the right to apologize," she said jokingly.

He smiled as he took her hand and pretended to be reading her palm then finally kissed it. Suddenly he looked up at her and she noticed his far away look.

She looked back at him questionably.

He continued to stare at her for a while longer then finally asked "Do you think your parents would approve of me if I proposed?"

To be continued...

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

Looking for Some Hot Stuff.....


So here I am single and care free...got a vacation coming up and I've reached the stage where I've taken those spinning earth balls...closed my eyes...spun them and then saw where my finger landed as a way to make up my mind on what destination to travel to!!...Two times out of three I got Canada for some reason...but that just seems too far and too cold...(even if they think it's summer time there..it just aint my type of summer!)...I got free accommodation to go to Canary Islands but then didn't make up my mind fast enough and so I lost it...Besides...who wants to be in a romantic place like that and be solo..yuck...I mean I know we can all brag that we're happy being single and carefree..but there's just so much a single gal's heart can take and watching love birds get all lovey dovey on the beach while I lay on a sunbed alone, reading a romantic novel under the boiling sun while sipping on a cocktail as I quench my thirst..then ending up reading the sentence over and over again 'coz I'm distracted by the romantic couple who have now decided to go skinny dipping...oh no...I DON'T THINK SO!...Problem is...I have to make up my mind where to go soon since my vacation starts in June...One choice was to spend a week in Thailand in a five star luxurious spa that would include all the rituals of a perfect reviving vacation (massages, facials and everything else for a "spoil me to death why don't you!)...I've been told that Mel Gibson goes there...now wouldn't that be a summer of all summers..(would I ever come back?!) Naturally, it's quite expensive but sounds so soothing I practically drooled when I saw the website...then there's Italy...ahh yes...I've been advised not to go there alone since the men are very forward in their approach...uh..Seriously...you think?..ok...so how is that different from Kuwait?!! Besides...who wouldn't mind being approached by an Italian??!!! Still..I guess it would be more fun with a bunch of friends..but then again knowing that traveling brings out either the best or worst in people..it's a risk I don't want to take...Bottom line...if you had two weeks to travel wherever you wanted...Where would you go and why?

Any Plans Tonight?

Grand Opening Invitation

You're Cordially invited to attend the Grand Opening of
Bassinet Gift Shop
Date: Tuesday, May 16th. 2006
Time: 6:00 p.m.
Location: Tala Center- Salmiya

Sunday, May 14, 2006

I'm Tagging Myself!..

Most Shocking Moment of the Week:

My High school friend just invited me to her daughter's wedding...wtf..now I'm going to friend's kid's weddings!!! Ok.....granted my friend got married when she was 16 and her daughter is now about the same age but still...I'm now attending daughter's weddings..WTF!!!

Most stupidest Incident of the Week:

A friend of mine and I are heading for dinner at Edo and she's trying to find parking..and being an already slow driver..she nearly stops as she looks for parking..I tell her to let the valet take care of it..but she insists...by now the car behind us is honking his horn like crazy...I tell her to go straight and then go up the pavement on the left and turn back to Edo...Meanwhile the guy behind us is doing the same and is still honking...she opens the window and says "ESHFEEK??" and he gestures that the car is leaking..I tell my friend "that's B.S. it's the oldest trick in the book"...she panics and snaps at me that it could be true and gets down...he gets down too..and has the dumbest ass..Piece of shit...Smirk on his pathetic face...She realizes that it's B.S...and now wants to give him a lecture about the nastiness of scaring us half to death for no particular reason....He turns to me and says "momken kalma"...I'm close to spitting in his face...we finally get into Edo..and I thank my friend for making us look sooooooooo sheeepish...ugh! It's moments like these that I wish guns were legal in Kuwait!

Most confusing decision Of the Week:

Do I renew my membership at Palms or try this new C Club...most important thing to find out is what type of people go to the C Club...Anybody know?


Most aggravating moment of the Week
:

Finding out that my colleague did it to me again and submitted her vacation for July and August and since we both can't travel at the same time..I'll have to take it in June or wait till September and in both cases it sucks...it's July and August that are the killers....bottom line...what a B*&&^%$$#^%$CTH!

Most Interesting Moment of the Week:

Went to the opening of Zaater we Zait infront of Qasr el Seif with friends...the whole area is moving on up with Panini and Humburg Hub there too...nice to see that area get all spiced up...it's the sign of the times as NIGHTLINE would say!

Most Thought Provoking Moment of the Week:

Was in need of a good cry and decided to go see an Indian movie..ended up sitting with my friend surrounded by around 100 cooks, drivers and what have you...The movie turned out to be quite funny and the best part was listening to the 100 cooks and drivers laugh...the smallest thing made them laugh...it was soo cute...felt small for having wanted to cry for not so important reasons...amazing that they'd cheered me up without even knowing!

Most Analytical Moment of the Week:

Was flipping through Layalina the other day (only 'coz I knew I was in there!) and took a good look at most people's faces..I realized that there was this look of everybody looking burnt out...it was sad...ok...the women did a good job at covering it with make up..but in general everybody looked burnt out...are we all rushing through life and its responsibilities looking like zombies while risking our health and happiness without even thinking??!!!...and for what!?

Most Repeated Sentence of the Week:

Life is too short so make the best of it!

Affirmation of The Week:

Life is short..make the best of it...Life is too short..make the best of it...Life is too short...make the best of it!

I'm tagging Samboose, Stallion, Delicately Realistic, Unknown Entity, A3sab, Judy Abbot and anybody who likes to be tagged!

Sunday, May 07, 2006

Conversations With A Man

Man: Wow, you’re pretty

Woman: Thanks

Man: I’m looking for a pretty woman

Woman: Oh really, that’s nice

Man: I think women have to take care of themselves after they get married, the man has the right to leave her, you know?

Woman: Oh really? What about the man?

Man: What about him?

Woman: Shouldn't he take care of himself too?

Man: (laughing!) It’s not the same thing. Anyway, like I said, the woman I’m with has to look pretty and STAY pretty!

Women: What about her intelligence?

Man: What do you mean?

Women: What I mean is her mind, should she be smart?

Man: (laughing) Oh no, definitely not. She should be pretty, that’s all that matters!

Woman: I don’t suppose you’d be interested in my poems then, I really think you should hear it

Man: (Bored) Ok..

Woman: Well, here it is….

She begins…

"It's called the

King Of Beast

I know not what lies in store
Nor do I ask for much more
Searching relentlessly for dreams
Hoping to find what it all means

Pleasure and pain you may ask
Why would one endure the task?
Pray, do not ask of me
What I for one cannot see

The very reason I do not know
Brought upon in life to grow
Provided with freedom and joy
While society declares me a toy

My gender is not one of opinion
Only beauty and a marked civilian
A man’s toy placed down the hall
To be at his own beck and call

Neither education nor wisdom they say
Only ones beauty and the role they play
The predator will seek his everlasting prey
And conquer he shall with no delay

So what differs us humans from animals?
No longer so strange to think us cannibals
Searching as hounds for the smell of prey
No minds to use, nor intelligence or brains

Can you turn back the years, if you please?
Take away my thoughts, my mind, my beliefs
And hand me over to a King of Beasts
To bare him his cubs and never have dreams

She stands up and smiles..

“I may be pretty but I’m not stupid so good bye and good luck”

as she walks away with her head held high...

Wednesday, May 03, 2006

Close Encounter with the Worst Kind

To make a long story short...my mother tries to set me up with this guy...he talks and talks and talks...(it's all about him..if you know what I mean)...and my mother in the end asks me what I think...even though she knows I couldn't stand the guy in the first place but I had no choice but to let my Mom try, try and try again...Having always fought with her whenever I accused the man of being a nerd, gay, snobbish, arrogant or dysfunctional..this time I was too exhausted to answer...but then I remembered one of his proud stories that he had told me...so I told her..."Mom..would you marry a man who found himself on a long flight with an unaccompanied kid sitting next to him...so in order to make sure that the kid didn't bother him, he actually took a sleeping pill and dropped it in the kid's drink which resulted in the kid sleeping through out the flight much to his delight?"...to which she answered "Ya bintee he's only trying to impress you"...I tell you people..Would you be impressed by a guy who might've killed the kid by putting a sleeping pill in his drink because he just didn't want the kid to bother him??

....Worse...WOULD YOU MARRY SOMEONE LIKE THAT???